Words by Sean Moeller, Illustration by Johnnie Cluney, Recording engineered by Mike Gentry
We sure do feel off-balance a lot. We're this way and we're that way, hot, cold, indifferent, all at the same time. We change our minds all the time and we let ourselves get away with it. It's others that hold us to our guns, but it's a continual morphing from this person to a different version of that person. We can't control many things and it leaves us fluttery, twisting in the breeze. Seattle songwriter, David Crane, the leader of the band BOAT, gets carried away with the contradictions that beset him - the wanting, the needing, the grey matter. He sings at one point that he's a "warm-blooded man" and the description should never be lost - that idea that, if the blood's still warm, there are many things that wind up out of our hands. It's what leads to many things, this inability to control what develops in our dark caverns, in the windowless upper register. It's what we can't overcome, what we just have to deal with. The song, "Kinda Scared of Love Affairs," from the band's latest full-length, "Dress Like Your Idols," is a look at the contradictions that beat on us - the desire to be something and the earnest consideration of what might really be wanted. Crane sings, "I'm not sure I want to be good-looking/But good looking is the only way to be/If you know the way to my heart than don't start/Don't start/I'm not sure that anything's there/Anything's there/I worked real hard to pay my bills/Pay your own bills/This plane's on track for a holy god crash/I know this much/And I don't really want to be soft-spoken/But soft-spoken is the only way to be/And I'm not sure I care to be good looking/Good looking seems impossible to me." The music comes from a man who claims to have learned how to read by studying the backs of baseball cards, reading about George Brett in Baseball Digest. It's music that seems to come from a baseball lover, someone infatuated with a national pastime that takes immense patience, involves screwballs, sliders, heaters, hot-foots, rain delays, pick-off moves and errors. It's a lot like good pop music. Only different.